where now
i’m writing this on the way to nyc for my 7am flight the following morning also - i’ve notified cornell that i will not be attending this semester
that was a lot, let me backtrack
tuesday 9/2: interview with build.ai
wednesday 9/3: receive invitation to come out to nyc to meet the founder, but i will not be in ny that day
thursday 9/4: got a text from the founder that he moved his flight to come see me. led me to booking a one-way, 4 hour bus that departed ithaca in 40 minutes following that text message
friday 9/5: come back to ithaca, to then leave 30 minutes later to see my girlfriend
wednesday 9/10: on the way to nyc to get on my one-way flight to sf
mental
now that we are caught up, i will reflect on the following and walk you through my mental
for one–freshman year me would have freaked out over this. the notion of working for a high growth cracked start-up was always the dream. now i’m living it in the city that i hope to call home
second–my parents have been distant (literally and figuratively). this was to be expected but it hurts more now that i’m dealing with it. hearing from friends saying that this is what I have always wanted, but see your parents concerned hurts. that baggage weighs on me and i need to be cognizant of how i play my cards going forward. i still love them nonetheless
third–relationships. not being able to see my closest friends in college and my girlfriend is going to suck. i had the dream apartment, with a group of guys that will 10000% be invited to the wedding–but now it’s gone(ish). i mean - if i come back next semester then i’ll see them, but there is a non-zero chance i don’t
framework
some frameworks that i have used to calm myself (a lot of anxiety in making this jump to work for a semester)
fry the small fish - this one sticks with me the most as i think big but we must remember that rome was not built in a day. if i want to not only succeed, but stay calm during times of rapid change, i need to remind myself what matters now. this way, progress is made early, wins accumulate, and mental is fortified
why - sometimes asking myself why am i doing something has actually helped. corny, sure–but it works. this will help you in real-time prioritize what matters most
say yes - a little counterintuitive, but humans are amazing we can handle a lot more than we give ourselves credit for. the more chances we take while only frying the small fish, will allow us to find the big fish. by then, you will realize the entire process was you frying the big fish all along
çiao
life is going to be interesting for the next few months i’ll see everyone soon